feeling real fucking lost in this cold place I call home and feel really fucking lonely with the heart I have. I can't be doing what I keep on doing, I am scared for myself, I am scared to be this lonely I am scared to have nobody..I am scared
I want to have it all I want to be normal I dont want to keep falling back on people and I want to be good and steady and be okay, but I cant be I am a fucking handful I vent I smoke I drink Im belligerent I am unsteady Im not okay, I am lonely
I want to be okay, I want to be okay, I want to write and be okay.
I dont know what to do, I dont know where im going, nor who it is i want to be
lost again and again and again and again