I CAN'T FOCUS, CAN'T CONCENTRATE, CAN'T THINK
MY HEAD IS BEATING AND THERE SEEMS TO BE A STRAIN
I'M LOSING FAITH IN MY LOVED ONES,
I'M FINDING HOPE IN MY STRUGGLING FRIENDS,
I TELL MYSELF I AM RELENTLESS, I TELL MYSELF I AM QUITTING
I AM SICK OF REJECTION,
LET DOWN,
BRUTALITY,
I am just fed up with myself, the actions I seem to keep doing, the money I keep throwing,
I can't hate myself, I have to learn to love it, and I have to find what it is that is going to make me happy.

my head fucking hurts, I am fucking sick of school, I am fucking sick of my days passing by held hostage in a fucking classroom learning things I am never going to use, when I can pick up the same book in my own fucking time. I am so fucking fed up, fed up, SICK, with everything and everyone, EVERYONE.

I can think of a few that I love being with,
I can think of a few I honestly miss,
I just need my life back in order & I need to find a motive & I need some effort